What's the Plan?

I really don't know. I don't know what to do next, how long to continue, or what I plan for when it's over. :/


I started this as a way to have a clean slate. A fresh start. A reboot. A renewal of the system.


Do I feel better? Yes. Do I have more energy? Yes. Do I still feel like I'm 90? No! Have I lost weight? Not really. Two lbs. I guess that's ok since today is only day 5. After all, I still haven't given up my coffee. I probably should but I don't want to. (tantrum-like face)


I'm leaving to go on vacation in 8 days. My family is worried I'll have tummy troubles on my trip if I don't stop beforehand. My hubby (God love him for his supportive nature) says we can buy a juicer when we get there and I can continue. But family dinners will be really hard. I come from a long line of serious eaters and much of our time together is food related. My mom has had the menu planned for two months. My brother (who you'll remember is hands-down the best cook I know) is making us ribs at his ranch and who knows what other delicious wonders he'll have. I'll be staying with one of my sisters (who you may also remember is the one who taught me how to cook and gave me a love of gourmet food.)


So here I sit, with my mornin' joe, trying to figure out where to go next. I'm five days in. I hear it gets easier. I know I feel better. But I am having ridiculous cravings for all things bad. Will I be able to resist those cravings when I'm not home, where just driving past the ihop makes me crave a giant stack of pancakes loaded with butter and syrup? (I don't even like pancakes, really.)


What do I want?


I want to feel better and continue to feel better. I want my headaches, joint pain, stress level, anxiety issues, skin issues, and digestive issues to go away. I want to drop 2 cup sizes. I'd like to drop 2 sizes in just about everything. I'd like to skid into my 50's feeling like I'm 25. (I've got 3 1/2 years for that but still, I know I'll wake up tomorrow and be 50.) I want to get back to running. hmmm...Maybe I should start that now. I just haven't been sure what kind of exercise I should be doing right now. I've been swimming every day, but probably not vigorously enough.


So how long do I continue? Should I plan to quit before I hit the road to avoid failure on the road. Or do I power through and see what happens? Is 40 days my goal? Or will I be ok with only 8?


Do I really have to quit spending my mornings with my frothy friend? Ugh...